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(no subject) [Aug. 2nd, 2005|10:34 am]
Lauren
Music as I get older makes a lot more sense....
to my manuel.....




Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
[x2]

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL!!!)
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
My final breath is gone
So I can fall asleep tonight

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
[to fade]
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ohhhh...hmmm [Jul. 18th, 2005|09:08 am]
Lauren
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |Judith A perfect circle]

So much drama so little time....well I finish school in 3 weeks thank god its taking forever. Stephan should be coming home in a couple weeks from kuwait....can't wait!!!!!!! He's such a doll....my little marine saving the world....ok...maybe im over doing that one but hey if ya knew you would understand.....as far as all other news theres none......well gtg
lauren
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deception [Jun. 16th, 2005|11:24 am]
Lauren
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |judith---a perfect circle]

I have recently discovered deception at it's finest. I really, I'm baffled and amazed the someone got me. I for years have been proud of my spitefull attitude...and last night I am amazed by the unnecessary, totally ridicolous....bologna that happened to me...I am stumped. I feel that partiall truth mixed with lies is more likely to be believed then the whole truth and nothing but the truth....how about them apples....Something I also feel, revenge....a big conversation that was actually hinting around on my circumstance that I was actually unaware of at the time. Now revenge has never smelt sooooo good...whats cooking in the kitchen. And normally revenge, if I particually had done something to that individuall to deserve it, I would blow it off in a well thats what I get...Oh know but this time it was out of pure bad attitude, Im sure of that.
well got to go
love ya
lauren
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beach [Jun. 12th, 2005|05:43 pm]
Lauren
[mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[music |I'm gonna love you (like nobodys loved u)]

I've been talking to this guy for like a month but we never went like on a date untill last night and wow................he picked me up at angies and my gosh he's so polite.........we went for a walk on the beach (his idea isnt the awesome) and we just clicked like instantly he opened the car door for me he kissed my hand it was just wonderfull.........walking on the beach and holding hands and we were standing there facing eachother and he put his hand on my face and he was like can I kiss you and I was like yes and it was so cool we were on the beach and it was just an awesome kiss like wow........and we went back to the house and he was like your different and he was like but in a good way I was like yeah between the the of us were kinda quarky...haha....heres the shitty part.....he leaves saturday night for kuwait....which sucks but I told him I would write him and he asked me if I would wait for him and theres no way I couldnt wait for him...hes to perfect I cant let this pass me by.....wow I'm just so discombobulated......everything was so perfect.....*sigh* I feel like Im floating all day today I couldnt stop smiling.......
later
lauren
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story of my life [Jun. 11th, 2005|03:46 am]
Lauren
so totally amazing guy.....has a girlfriend.....how Ironic........*sigh*
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smile*** [Jun. 11th, 2005|12:46 am]
Lauren
im b0red
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(no subject) [Jun. 11th, 2005|12:46 am]
Lauren
THE TORTURE (English Translation)

I'm not asking that every day be sunny
I'm not asking that there be a party every Friday
Nor do I ask you to come back begging forgiveness
If you're crying with dry eyes,
Speaking about her

Oh my love, it hurts so much
It hurts so much
That you left without saying a word
Oh my love, losing you was torture

I know I haven't been a saint
But I can make it up to you

Man doesn't live on bread alone
Nor do I live on excuses

We only learn from mistakes
And today I know my heart is yours

Better save that for yourself
Take that bone to some other dog
And let's say goodbye

I can't ask winter to spare a rose bush
I can't ask an elm tree to bear pears
I can't ask the eternal of a mere mortal
And go about casting thousands of pearls before swine

Oh my love, it hurts so much
It hurts so much
That you no longer trust my promises
Oh my love, losing you has been torture

I know I haven't been a saint
And I'm not made of stone

Man doesn't live on bread alone
Nor do I live on excuses

We only learn from our mistakes
And today I know my heart is yours

Better save that for yourself
Take that bone to some other dog
And let's say goodbye

Listen, baby, don't you go
Listen, baby, don't get angry
From Monday to Friday you have my love
Give Saturday to me and you'll be better off
Listen baby, don't punish me anymore
Without you, out there I have no peace
I'm just a repentant man
I'm the bird that returns to its nest

I know I haven't been a saint
And I'm not made of stone

Man doesn't live on bread alone
Nor do I live on excuses

We only learn from our mistakes
And today I know my heart is yours

Better save it for someone foolish enough to believe you and say Goodbye

AD LIBS

Oh after all I've done for you
It was such a torture to lose you
It hurts me so that it's like this
Keep on crying sorry
I…
I'm not going
To cry over you
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2005|08:25 am]
Lauren
"Chain Of Fools"

For five long years
I thought you were my man
But I found out, I'm just a link in your chain
Oh, you got me where you want me
I ain't nothin but your fool
Ya treated me mean
Oh you treated me cruel

Chain, chain, chain
(Chain, chain, chain
Chain of fools)

Every chain, has got a weak link
I might be weak child, but I'll give you strength
Oh, babe
(Woo, woo, woo, woo)
You told me to leave you alone
(Ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo)
My father said 'Come on home'
(Ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo)
My doctor said 'Take it easy'
(Ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo)
Oh but your lovin is just too strong
(Ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo)
I'm added to your
Chain, chain, chain
(Chain, chain, chain)
Chain, chain, chain
(Chain chain, chain)
Chain, chain, chain
(Chain... chain... chain... )
Chain of fools

Oh, one of these mornings
The chain is gonna break
But up until the day
I'm gonna take all I can take, oh babe

Chain, chain, chain
(Chain, chain, chain)
Chain, chain, chain
(Chain, chain, chain)
Chain, chain, chain
(Chain... chain... chain... )
(Chain of fools)

Oh!
(Chain, chain, chain, chain, chain, chain, chain)
(Chain, chain, chain)
Oh - oh!
(Chain, chain, chain, - ain, ain, ain, ain)
Your chain of fools
[FADES]
Oooooooooooooooooh...
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how I feel [Apr. 11th, 2005|04:24 pm]
Lauren
Nothing can be done against the truth
No matter how we remain in denial (yeah)
Wasting time
Replacing time
With each empty excuse
But that'll only work a little while
Coping with despair
Knowin' you're not there
Ashamed to just admit
I've been a fool
So I blame it on the sun
Run away from everyone
Hoping to escape this ridicule
Trapped in misery
Wrapped so miserably
In this deception that I'm wearin' it like a skin

Dying to maintain
Oh I keep trying to explain
A heart that never loved me to begin
Oh I'm such a mess
I have no choice but to confess
That I've been desperately trying to belong
Lying to myself
And everybody else
Refusing to admit my right was wrong

And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
Praise and Meditation
And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
Did ya think about that?
And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
Praise and Meditation
And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
That it deceived

How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?
My guilty heart behaves so foolishly
This treason from within
That reasons with my sin
Won't be happy til' it sees the death of me
Selfishly addicted
To a life that I depicted
Conflicted cuz it's not reality
Oh what's left of me
I beg you desperately
Cause me to agree to what I know is best for me
Please save me from myself
I need you to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal
The choices that I make
Oh have been nothing but mistakes
What a wasted use of space
Should I die before I wake?
In all of my religion
I've fortified this prison
Obligated to obey
The demands of bad decision
Please save me from myself
I need you to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal

And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
Praise and Meditation
And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
Did ya think about that?
And he came
Selah
Oh and it means
Meditation
And then he came
Selah
Oh and it means
That it deceived

And then he came
And then he came
Then he came
Then he came
And then he
And then he came
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2005|05:39 pm]
Lauren
sum 41 pieces
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I dont believe it makes me real
Id thought itd be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said

If you believe its in my soul
Id say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That Im better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I dont know how it got so bad
Sometimes its so crazy that nothing could save me
But its the only thing that I have

If you believe its in my soul
Id say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That Im better off on my own

(On my own!)

I tried to be perfect
It just wasnt worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
Its hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it?s in my soul
Id say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That Im better off on my own


blah.

die.
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