||[Oct. 10th, 2005|10:47 pm]
well, I really think that maybe my life would be easier if I could just cut guys out completely...but then theres that a whole hit of reality and I am me, and I am in love with being in love and I love romance. But at the same time, I have a hard time understanding and dealing with disappointment. I think that maybe I am to honest with people, and I expect the same in return. I don't like games, if I ask you I expect you to honestly answer...even if you may think it might hurt me...chances are I asked because of suspition so Iim already a little hurt. Things change, life changes, people change, feelings change...I know this. Somehow I am always the only person who can stay caught up in a moment longer than a while. And I have trouble letting go...I would really rather be dumped...then dump someone....I have to many what if's running through my mind. I'm to stressed...I have to many issues to deal with little boys...like my an entire employment ordeal...not sure what I am going to do I am trying to get a job...and I really really dont want to come down to a gas station or fast food I worked to hard in school to do so...I am praying that wednesday becomes my day of glory!
well all keep me in your prayers